3/27/12

takemealltheway

(wearing: thrifted floral dress & green knit, Solemio lace wrap from Nastygal, backpack from Mexico)


Feels so nice to get back to posting (somewhat) regularly! I've really felt so scatterbrained lately, which has led to a lack in ability to produce a proper post. It seemed like every time I sat down to type something out, nothing was coming out right-or even made sense for that matter. And I am not going to force myself to post just to post. That is something I definitely would have done earlier on in blogging, but now I realize how redundant and counterproductive that is because the whole point is to publish something you are proud of, something that inspires you or shows a bit of who you are-not something forced and insincere. I was looking through some of my wayyy older posts the other day and I was thinking 'wow, I was trying way too god damn hard' and I really wanted to delete most of them because they are so far and away from what my blog has evolved into today..but then I stopped myself and realized; it's all a part of the process. It's kind of nice to look back and see how far I've come, how much I have let go, how open and honest I have become (mostly with myself..which is sometimes hardest of all).

I know I mentioned before I had a lot of life changes going on, but didn't really delve into what exactly those 'life changes' were. Well, reality is, we are all in a constant cycle of change and growth-even when we don't realize it. But sometimes, something unexpected comes into play and throws your balance and your whole way of being off. Some of you who have followed my blog for a while will know that I was in a serious relationship for four years. Well, let's just say things came to an abrupt halt and I was forced to really examine myself and my life and what I really want for my future. I won't share too many intimate details, but as hard as the adjustment has been, I see that it is all for the best. I am seeing things through a whole different perspective, and I am focusing more on myself and my own happiness than I have in as long as I can remember. I have been writing like crazy, spending quiet moments alone reading, getting lost in music. It's amazing how therapeutic and spirit lifting music is. Life is just so beautiful, and I want to experience it all. I want everything I wanted before, but in a different way and with a different sense of urgency.

Sorry for rambling, I am going to cut this short because I could literally go on for days.
dis gurlz got mo issuez den vogueeee hunnay boooboo chilllld
yep, went there.


Time to go journal and read at my favorite look out point...


XXSEA

39 comments:

  1. hi dear!
    I rly love ur blog!
    wanna follow each other?
    xoxo
    Irene

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    1. thanks so much! I will definitely check yours out(:

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  2. HUNNY BOOBOOCHILD. BEST EPISODE.

    but
    A) this look is stunning! as are you! did you dye your roots as well? cuz dat shit l00ks bomb.
    B) sometimes you really need something drastic (such as your abrupt halt) to realize how good life can be. spending time alone is awesome, and realizing how awesome things are is REALLY awesome.
    C) glad you're back to posting! you're content is always great.

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    1. hahhahaa isn't it though?!?!?

      A) you're freakin raddddd (and no it was a temporary spray I had done to my hair when I walked in LA fashion weekk..haha which is a whole awkward story in itself)
      B) very very true, and I'm realizing what a blessing it will be in the long run more and more each day
      C) THANK YOU!! your comment seriously made my day <3

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  3. Your hair is so incredibly vibrant, and that dress is seriously cool! I'm glad to hear you're making something positive out of your fresh start. I look forward to further future amazingness.

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  4. Why are you sooo damn perfect?!?!?? I really love your style ♥

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    1. ahh my love far from perfect, trust me. Thanks for your kind words and overall rad-ness (:

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  5. Wow, the colours in your hair look beautiful! x

    Lousine Adelia

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    1. <33 so much love for youuu pretty girl

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  7. sea, i love your mind, your spirit your wonder, your questions and contemplation,
    you get me in captivity each time i read your entries, and i wish we could sit for coffee one day,
    till then salamata
    you captivating gorgeous woman
    mae,
    http://maesvision.blogspot.com/

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    1. Mae, your comments have to be some of the most heartfelt, meaningful, and touching words I could everrr hope to receive<3

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  8. your hair is amazing! and this outfit is so dreamy and perfect, I love all of it all of it. it's crazy how well the best coast song that started playing when I was clicked here goes with it haha.

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    1. ahh you're so sweet(: thankyouthankyouthankyouuuu

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  9. you are like a perfect grunge hippie version of rainbow brite and i love it! life changes can be so hard sometimes, it's good to hear you have such a great outlook :) xo

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  10. your positivity is super inspiring. keep on exploring and live life like a mothafuckin champ. and your hair is pretty much the best, which I'd totally taker comfort in

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    1. hahaha thank you so much for this, you are the womaaaaannnnn x

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  11. girls without issues are boring.. just sayin'. TEAM GIRLS WITH ISSUES.

    p.s. I've never had more hair envy with anyone than I do every time I look at yours.

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    1. couldn't have put it better myself ladyy.
      TEAM GIRLS WITH ISSUES FA LYFEEEEE GURLFREN.

      x

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  12. Sooo glad I found your blog! Your style is amazing. This outfit is amazing. Your hair is amazing. You are just amazing!!!
    Lucy
    xoxo

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    1. ummm you are waaaaaay more amazingg, like ferealz, gurl crushhhhhh!!!

      x

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  13. I looove this outfit, you look so rad.. the dress and green sweater and your hair are like.. the best. ever.

    I think it is always good to reflect on life, and figure things out.. I hope that this time can allow you a lot of clarity, and help you learn more about yourself in the process.

    :)

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    1. ahh Isabelllll you make my heart melt lady friendd<3

      Thanks so much for the encouraging words, means soso much

      x

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  14. That bag looks cool, and as always your hair ROCKS!

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  15. that happened to me about 3 years ago (after a 3 year relationship) and it threw me for such a proverbial loop that it took me another 3 years to get over/through it. all i did was contemplate and try to make myself a better person. i guess that is all we really can do.

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    1. so sorry to hear that<3
      It's definitely a struggle, and one that I am sure I will be coping with for quite some time, but it is definitely opening my eyes to a lot of things I was closed off to before, and growth and putting time and energy into becoming the best version of myself is all I could wish to gain from this(:

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  16. Swoon over your style <3

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